so i've never attempted this before but it's something called Five Minute Friday that my sis in law does over here (she's an incredible person and writer, just FYI). there are a group of women that are a part of it and encourage one another through their writing and comments on each others writings. the idea is that Lisa-Jo, the main woman, pics a topic or word and you are then to set your timer for 5 minutes and just write. write what ever comes to your heart within that 5 minutes, no editing, no worries, just free writing and then you link it to her post and let the encouragement flow! i however will not be participating in that aspect of it as i would then need to link this post and i don't post on my blog often enough to do that...at least right now. maybe i will in the future but for now not gonna happen. but i wanted to try it and this is what came out. the word for this friday was Afraid.
i've never been one to be afraid of the dark not even as a little kid (at least as i recall, maybe i was) but i am afraid of the darkness within my heart. there are days, like today, where i just wake up feeling dark. which leads me to be mean or unloving/uncaring to those that i DO love like my awesome twin boys and my awesome husband. there is no reason for my behavior and the only explanation is that i am a sinner through and through and i need Jesus every minute of every day. He is the light to my darkness so that i need not be afraid, with His light no darkness can stand not even in the darkest places of my heart.
